Monday, 27 August 2012
I want to start off by saying how much I have missed you all!!!! I've been MIA all summer. I don't want to get in to too many details, but it has been one of the hardest few months of my life. Mentally, that is. My boyfriend is still heaven on earth, we are as strong as ever, but boy oh boy, am I glad that I'm feeling better. My weight has literally yo-yo'ed like crazy. At the end of June I was down to 117-118 and this morning I was 126.4. Ugh, not happy with this at all. I have a wedding this weekend and would LOVE to see 124 on the scale that morning. Then my goal is to get back to 120 and stay there. I was happy there. It shouldn't be too hard. I know I was over-eating and that is easy to change.
Last Friday I went to speak with a counselor, something I never in a million years thought I would do but one of my good friends convinced me to go and even just making the decision to go, has been therapeutic. I've really had to look deep inside myself and it is a hard process, but one I'm finally happy to be doing. I can't always be strong and that isn't a sign of weakness.
I know this entry is probably surprising many of you, and as time goes on, I will likely open up about some of the issues I've been dealing with this summer, but for now, I'm just really happy to be back and can't wait to connect with all of you again.
I hope you ladies are all doing well. Here are some pictures from my summer. Although it has been a rough one, there were some really great times.
My mom and Caleb up at a cottage she rented for 10 days. It was amazing.
My knight in shining armor. This was taken at his badge ceremony.
Canada Day is big deal in Ottawa. Here I am with one of my best friends that traveled home from Toronto to celebrate with us.
Bachelorette Party in MTL.
Picture with one of my besties at the bachelorette.
One of the weddings this summer.
My pup Shelby up at the cottage. She swam for hours every day.
Caleb at Village Du Pere Noel up near the cottage.
Pony ride at Village Du Pere Noel.
Mixology class in MTL as part of the bachelorette weekend.
Caleb and his Daddy enjoying one of the slide at the Village Du Pere Noel.
Paddle boating up at the cottage. Shelby would swim out to the boat and make us pull her up so she could come along for a ride.
Caleb snuggling with his new best friend.
Another picture from Canada Day, this time with my best friend.
I took this picture before we headed up to the cottage. So cute!!
Random night out, we decided to buy $6 matching shirts. Definitely a conversation starter. I was about 118lbs or so in this picture, from this point forward, I gained weight all summer I'd love to get back down to 118lbs eventually.
My boys in the water
I volunteered in a charity golf tournament with my girls. Tons of fun!
I don't look great in this picture but there is something cute about it. Maybe it was the memory of my dad testing out his new cam on us.
B- Bran cereal + blueberries + 1 banana + coffee [X]
S- 1 peach [X]
L- Leftover sauteed zucchini, eggplant, tomatoes + raw carrots [ ]
S- 90-cal bag of crispy minis [ ]
D- Shawarma (divide plate in half immediately, no snacking at girl's night) [ ]
Have an amazing day. Feels so good to be writing on here again. I look forward to catching up on all your blogs. xo